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I am but a puppet to my heart's passion

In the crudeness of the night

Truth and shadows mimic the twilight

And things that hide in the light

Become plainly and vividly in sight

There is a rawness to utter darkness

It is, in my opinion, what many fear

Because inside your head, free of noise, it is a coward that always appears

As dawn lifts the sky and the sunlight draws near

Your reality begins. Enjoy your life of sin.


"This passion, this burn, this fire... it will consume me eventually."

Me, myself, & my mic

Me, myself, & my mic
"My touch sets the pace as I lace my fingers around it's thin waist, and my voice sends static music that hypnotizes you without a choice, and my words? Oh, my words. They are the potency behind my sweet lips poetic bite. Just me, myself, & my mic.

Self Portrait

My body aches with desire
My fingers itch with passion
My mind yearns for truth
My heart screams for compassion
Live with purpose
Fight for a cause
Find reason for each breath you take
Because everyone dies
But not everyone lives

Monday, April 12, 2010

"God Saved Me"

Ok, so I get it, I really do. I am a Catholic and I am a strong believer in God and fate and the spirituality of it all (including the very real spirit world/realm) but I can't seem to grasp the reality on this whole "God saved me" gimick.

Religion is always a touchy and ridiculously controversial topic, however, I believe it is very simple. If you have an open mind, you will listen, debate, argue, but all of these tasks would be done logically. Religion all in itself is completely and utterly illogical, but debate is always logical.

With that being said, allow me to explain where these thoughts are coming from.

I don't think I have to reemphasize on the fact that I live in a state God created while he was either drunk, or he created it when he was bored one day and wanted to do a practical joke. Well, you would think that a state so close to the Mexican border, we would be rich with culture and diversity. Wrong. So wrong. Oh,my how wrong.

People here are a direct product of history repeating itself and included in this madness of a circle of nonrevolution, is their religious beliefs. For example, since I am not a memeber of any particular church, I am "unclean," or not serving Him as I should...

Hmm....

I hear all the time, just roaming the hospital halls, or shopping at the grocery store how "God saved them." Explain:

I have an employee who recently told me he was offended by one of their fellow employees' locker because they decorated the outside of it with calendar girls. Before everyone starts raising that "sexual harrassment card," all the girls were clothed and were not inappropriately posed. They were literally just pretty faces in what would normal everyday people would most likely wear on a beach and still be considered over dressed. Well, when I asked him what in particular offended him (I already asked her to take down her locker since my role as a sup is to prevent any discomfort no matter how ridiculous it may seem) he said he just didn't like looking at other women other than his wife because he didn't want to sin under God's eyes.
............

Really?

Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but God did give men dicks right? Ok, I get how that can be insensitive, but really???? Explain that to me right-winged Church going crazies! I understand lust is a sin, however, does the look-but-dont-touch rule mean it's a sin? My husband would not be doing me an injustice if he were to look at another woman. I do believe we were given emotions as well and if we are not permitted to feel certain emotions as human beings, emotions which are natural to us, almost instinctive, then how do we excuse every little guilty pleasure? And I use "guilty" lightly.

Oh, wait. Don't tell me. I know. Confession, right?

Because of course the four time rapist/drug deal
er/murderer feels guilty each and every time he goes to confession, right?

That little booth makes everything alright, right? Puhleeze!

So, I then casually mention that my husband and I will be clubbing this weekend. He then responds that "oh, ever since God saved me I avoid those kinds of places."

Those kinds of places? What kinds of places?

Again, unless God is sadistic, I very much doubt you going to an establishment and dancing while having a few drinks is considered unholy. I just don't get these man-made rules that suddenly question my merit.

So, I asked him. "Whats wrong with a club?"
his response? "Too many temptations."

AH HA!!! I knew it!!!

So, explain to me... God saved you and now you are this new and holy God-fearing person. However, you have to completely avoid particular places or things in order to not succumb to your true feelings of temptation? Doesn't that make you a coward? Because I can most certainly go to a club and not feel the urge to be gluttonous or sleep with a stranger or shoot up or any of those things... so doesn't that deep down inside make this man a fake? It's not that he doesn't think those things are wrong, because if he did, he wouldn't even desire them in the least bit, and certainly he would be able to contain himself if temptation enticed him because morally he is unable to commit to such awful things. No, its not that at all. He wants it and therefore completely avoids his true self.

How then, has God saved you?

1 comments:

Craig said...

Hey hey you.leave him alone OK just cause he can't control himself from any and all temptation and he has to hide himself in a bubble from the world that doesn't make him weak or a coward oh wait YES IT DOES OH PLEASE STOP YOUR JUDGING YOU SO CALLED CHRISTIANS LAST TIME I CHECKED WE ARE ALL HUMAN AND ARE IMPERFECT STOP PUTTING YOURSELF ON THIS IMAGINARY PLATFORM ABOVE ANYONE ELSE WHO ARE YOU TO DECIDE YOU ARE ANY BETTER OR HOLY THAN I. LAST TIME I CHECKED YOU ARE NOT GOD LET HIM DEAL WITH ME AND YOU WORRY ABOUT YOURSELF IF I AM NOT HURTING YOU LEAVE ME BE.